Last week I wrote about Attitude and our ability to choose and change it as wanted.  As usual, I was aiming to describe the big picture, the present moment, and as always let it be open ended to let the reader put themselves in the action.  But what if you are holding on to negative attitudes unconsciously?  Over the weekend I discovered how artful our ability is to cover up perceived negative situations and negative attitudes by placing them in boxes and taping them shut!

While talking to a friend last Friday, I was asked what I was going to do over the weekend.  I listed all the fun things planned, and we went on with our conversation.  My attitude was positive.  At the end of the call, I remember telling her I felt like I have a lot of things unfinished and would like to make completing them a priority. My attitude was still positive, but I did feel a glitch when I mentioned unfinished things. I am telling these details as a set up for my discovery of unconscious negative attitudes I have been holding on to for years!  I realized when you move one thing, it puts a spotlight on what is sitting next to the item, thought or emotion that was moved.

Saturday morning, I moved the first box (with help), and that’s when everything fell apart.  My attitude went south, and I could feel resistance through my body.  No particular reason why, as the project was planned, and I was happy to be moving on, so I thought.  The problem I realized later was the two large boxes of DIY stuff from the 90’s now directly staring at me.  I knew they were there, but somehow not being able to see them made me not have to deal with their contents.  These boxes have been moved three times before landing in this garage.  Feeling deep frustration, I left them right where they were.

It took a while, but I finally questioned myself about why I had not given everything in the boxes to charity years ago.  It was not a fast realization, but after lunch and well into the afternoon, I did put the pieces together.  My negative attitude, hidden from my conscious thought was that of disappointment in failing to complete a project (if I held on to it to use someday, it was not a total bust).  Placing meaning to a box of craft items is not logical, but when I started thinking of the time and place they were bought and not used, my memories and reasoning came back in a very clear way.  It seems I was carrying the weight of a now identified misstep for decades!

Clearly seeing the unwanted self-described meaning I had placed on these two boxes, I re-examined my old meaning of the contents, cleared my attitude and chose a new (positive) one.

The incoming energies of the Full Moon on the 20^th dug deep into buried emotions and old thoughts launching them to the surface.  I will admit, this process can be exhausting physically, mentally, and emotionally.

If you find yourself staring at boxes with emotions you can’t explain, slow down and let them sit there. Give yourself time and space to figure it out. This frees you to make your decisions to throw them out or let them sit a little longer!

Be aware that some Boxes exist in our lives for discovery and transformation.  For me, consciously choosing a new Attitude felt great!

Love to all,

Cindi

“It All Starts with YOU!”

  Box

I always get to where I am going by walking away from where I have been.   ~~~~   Winnie the Pooh in the film “Christopher Robin” (written by Perry, McCarthy and Schroeder)